Stilling the wakeful mind that keeps mommy from sleep
Last night brought little sleep. Three wakeful children each made their way to my bedside before midnight. Coughs, bad dreams and thirst kept babes – and their mom – from getting deep into dream land.
Problem is, once I’m awake, it’s difficult to fall back asleep.
So I ponder.
I ponder on the lack of recipes in my repertoire and search out ideas at midnight on Pinterest. I ponder on the need to connect to readers so I dive onto Twitter.
Then I tell my fingers and my phone to be still and I just sit in bed.
The mind wanders to unfinished projects, uncompleted goals, worry and questions.
I should have grabbed a piece of paper, wrote it down, put it aside.
The inability to fall back asleep inflicts many moms, I would guess. There are too many unanswered thoughts during the day that come to mind in the quiet stillness of night. I should probably learn to meditate, but that would be another item for the never-ending “to do” list of life.
Moms need each other, quiet time and lots of prayer. But I realize I don’t make time enough for any of those. I make plenty of excuses, but not time.
So I tried to turn that around last night. I turned to prayer and drift asleep, a sign I take that that was just what I needed.